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这种挫折感, 还真难受。

From now on,

From now on, I am going to live for myself.

I've always been very conscious about how others view me. These 2 years, for fear that I will be judged and hated on, I tried my best to be nice and to follow others.

I realised that that is not who I am.
That is not what I am.

I am the most bitchy girl you can find.
I judge people till they die.
I am mean, blunt and critical.
And I am proud of it.

Keekee taught me that it is okay to be judged. Because no one is going to make decisions for you and no one can affect how you are.

So I am going to live for myself.
At least its better than being fake.

I enjoy criticizing others. Not for no reason of course.
If you offend me I will not hesitate to humiliate you.
It is not that I do not know how to protect myself from getting in trouble.
After all, how many, among those you know, can you actually trust.
You never know.

I'm living for myself.
And only trusting myself.
That is CHERYL for you.
Either you take it, or leave it.