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Had training today.
Was in high spirits for the past few holiday trainings but I was in a horrible state with a bad mood today because my stomach was feeling terribly queasy.
Need to work on my passes. Especially receiving in the centre. So that I don't keep jumping around just to ensure I receive the blade on my left.
Didn't manage to score much goals today aside from a few lucky ones. Haix.
Need to do something to my blade gosh. But kinda in a dilemma how.

Anyway the year4s went to lunch after training as usual hehe

Wah its quite stressful. To me being friendly and sociable is really a big feat. I always overreact. In whatever situation. I scream when I try to shoot, I laugh very loud at things that are not funny and talk in bad situations. I really don't know why I am like this sometimes I even find myself irritating. I'm afraid that the past 2 years of control will go to waste and return to the kind of life where I am hated. I really don't want to. It is a literal nightmare. Since primary one. I'm really tired. But controlling myself this way will make me lose my character. In such a dilemma.
If I really be MYself, people will probably never see me smile nor hear my voice for the rest of my life.

算了。