HELLO

Okay so I just stalked myself and realised that I am still growing. HAHA mentally I mean. Some of the things I say are really quite funny but i guess they form part of my memory uh.
The recent few months have been quite hectic, stressful, but at the same time very enjoyable and fulfilling.
Let's start from driving. I finally learnt vertical parking. ohmyygodd. It's too difficult. And the lessons are really hard to book I can't even?? It's like I will take forever to get my license. And my provisional license is expiring soon I need to get to BBDC to like update it = waiting for 1 hour doing nothing at the second floor.

Now let's move on to dance. So this year, Tania and I are participating in three competitions.
Get the Beat was on June 10th. Annnd it was half exciting and half awkward. The number of competitors in each category was really.... lacking HAHA. Even though it felt awkward getting 1st place for OMG, I personally felt that we did really well and we deserved a placing because it was evident that the audience enjoyed it. Even though I was like 90% close to puking during the dance because I was too excited/nervous, I felt that we really showed stage presence. I myself could feel us showing great expressions. Breath was full of mistakes and disappointing. Something that I didn't really expect because I thought we were well prepared? But maybe we were not that well prepared in the end. I failed at the 'Rising from the Dead' move and I still feel quite sore about it till now even though it has been a month... I practised hard for it and it is my strength. Maybe I was too complacent. Well, setbacks are alright. Because we learn from them. We got 4th in the end. Half awkward and half shocking because we were not the last place hehe :P

This coming Sunday is the Crestar School of Dance internal dance competition, which I consider, personally, extremely small-scale. Despite the scale of the competition in my humble perspective, I still want very bad to win medals in this competition because it shows where our standard is compared to others. I'm pretty confident about the performance ability of my dance class even though the technique levels across the class is pretty uneven. But Ms Lang Ley has really great and creative choreographies that we all ought to learn from. Especially me because lack of creativity is one of my biggest weaknesses. Tania and I are performing the shorter version of OMG, and I don't know what to expect, because 2 minutes is really very short for a duo performance. It's like I need to make an impact in 2 minutes but i'm gonna end this before the climax even reaches?  Yes, but we will do our best no matter what happens anyway. So let's all hope for the best as well :) We are probably gonna be pretty unique with our hiphop kpop fusion item as compared to the other items that are gonna appear in our category, probably contemp and modern stuff. We have been practicing quite hard everyday for SPY and I hope our efforts pay off. The bad news is, Kehui is down with HFMD and we had to change some parts of our choreography last minute. But I consider our ability to improvise not bad because some people have really creative ideas. I always believe that we must fight for what we want, yet at the same time I do believe in fate and destiny, so this time round I think it is fate that we are thrown this challenge 3 days before the competition and this allows us to display our teamwork. At the same time it is also a wake up call to the rest of us that no one is indispensable and that its time to pull up our socks because achievements don't come to us easily without hard work. That being said, it is quite saddening to know and see that not everyone has the same priorities as others. Humans are all naturally easily influenced by the people in our surroundings and we all understand that everyone changes, for the good or for the worst. Not everyone will have the same goals especially since we are all starting the tertiary education in our lives and not everyone can maintain that same passion. Its a great pity, but that's life. Of course, as this is a group effort, I do hope that everyone, including myself, can be more responsible for this whole thing.

Later in the month, Tania and I are flying over to Hong Kong for the challenge cup. Personally, I'm not expecting anything and I'm going there just for the experience (and a short holiday :P) I suddenly remembered I haven't bought the tickets omg. This would be my first time doing a lyrical contemporary solo. Shall post more on this when its over maybe?

Okay so on 27th to 30th June I went for Pharmacy's Freshmen Orientation Camp. It was really an eye-opener for me. Being in a sheltered environment for the past 6 years, I realised that I have really been nothing but a "Frog living under the well". The outside world is so different and I guess I will take the next few months to learn a lot, from my OG, OGLs and seniors. And the story of how I ended up agreeing to go for Bash. I was highly encouraged (so highly that it was more of urging haha) to do up to the stage to just randomly follow some dance movements the seniors played on the screen. And I must have been crazy on that day or 吃错药 or something, I really did everything, BUAY PAISEH. So there was this worm movement, which I have never really tried in my life. When it appeared on the screen, there was this imaginary voice in my head telling me to just do it. So I was the only one who did it... and so everyone knew me as the person who danced on the stage. Then besides Mendez, Carter (according to Cheryl) supported me in the voting yep so that's how I got nominated?? And I agreed because it was a chance to gain experience and perform in front of my cohort, on a relatively different stage from usual. And it would be my first time performing for peers because I have never joined any dance clubs in school. I think it would be enriching.

Andddd so the above are my current sources of stress, but I know after all this I would have withdrawal symptoms. All the effort that I put in over the past few months would be worth it. So let's just press on and we can all do this - dance mates, bashies, Tania.
Really missed out on my Korean variety shows during this period of time and I probably would be really out of it until I graduate probably haha sounds super no life omg...

Today was really funny during dance practise though hahah I think the few of us 在发明星梦. Trying to be like a kpop group, splitting parts and creating fan chant HAHAHAHA creating good memories la. Its super funny and ridiculous we even tried to create stage names?? HAHAHAHA
OK here goes please don't judge-
Wae-ee-rin (that's me) & Samantha - Lead vocalists
Chu-a (Tania HAHAHAHHAHAAHH) - lead dancer
Shin-ee (xinyi) - reaction
Jo-ee-seu (joyce) and Peu-li-sha (phylicia wts HAHA) - visual
heo-ee-yan (daphne) and hu-ee (kehui)- rap HAHAHAHH shit
Jing-yan - MAKNAE
shi-yang (xuyang) - LEADER
HAHAHHA BEST ROLE ALLOCATION RIGHT LOLOLOL
Alright enough of fun.
Looking forward to FOW but not the new group allocation???
Gnite